My heart is steadfast, O God
I’ll sing praises up to Thee the among the nations
I’ll give thanks to Thee O Lord among the peoples
I’ll sing praises up to Thee in my soul
I’ll sing praises up to Thee the among the nations
I’ll give thanks to Thee O Lord among the peoples
I’ll sing praises up to Thee in my soul
I am thankful these are not mere words from the mouth of a man, but they are written into the Psalms (108) so that I can stand firmly on truth and not a fleeting emotion.
If you had seen or talked to me within the past two days, this would not have seemed true for me, but that is the thing about emotions, they change with the wind, they do not last, they do not reflect truth.
As a baby is quickly approaching and on the way, actually the babe is delaying his entrance into this world, I feel the need to get something down in writing before his arrival. I am not sure why, and not sure why it is this word of truth I feel led to write about, but maybe it is because the Lord wants me to be reminded that I have no idea the outcome of this birth, but the outcome doesn't change truth.
Oh how we have prayed. We have prayed for the conception of this child, we have prayed for his little body parts, his formation, his heart (literally and spiritually), his purpose, and most recently his birth. "Come on child" has been our prayer. Please Lord bring him on time, yesterday, in an hour, please just bring him out naturally and in your perfect timing. We have called for prayer back up from some of the strongest prayer warriors we know and the answer....silence...nothing. Why Lord? Why aren't you answering us? Why aren't you answering us the way we desire? Is your silence a "no"? Is it a just "not now?"
A moment of honesty is that we were praying for the delivery of this baby on a specific date because the date had special meaning to us. I just knew God was going to grant us our wish, and then my grand plan was that I was going to write about how He is an intimate God who really hears us and knows our deepest and secret longings. And then that day came and went quietly...with no sound, no stirring of a baby, no sign of the day being any different than the day before. Why Lord? He gently reminded me that he doesn't need me to display His glory, He doesn't need my voice to reflect His intimacy, because He is steadfast. His character is steadfast, regardless of how my prayers are answered. So, with that I will sing praises to Him. He is intimate, He knows my needs, He hears my cries, and even when He is silent He is working, working out His purposes, His plan, and He is still writing our stories and our songs, each to our own.
I don't know what the next few days hold for us. I don't know how or when this babe will join us, but I know that my heart is steadfast because He is steadfast, unwavering, unchanging in His goodness, and that He loves us so so very much. I am thankful for Jesus and that I can walk with and rest in a person, in my savior.
A moment of honesty is that we were praying for the delivery of this baby on a specific date because the date had special meaning to us. I just knew God was going to grant us our wish, and then my grand plan was that I was going to write about how He is an intimate God who really hears us and knows our deepest and secret longings. And then that day came and went quietly...with no sound, no stirring of a baby, no sign of the day being any different than the day before. Why Lord? He gently reminded me that he doesn't need me to display His glory, He doesn't need my voice to reflect His intimacy, because He is steadfast. His character is steadfast, regardless of how my prayers are answered. So, with that I will sing praises to Him. He is intimate, He knows my needs, He hears my cries, and even when He is silent He is working, working out His purposes, His plan, and He is still writing our stories and our songs, each to our own.
I don't know what the next few days hold for us. I don't know how or when this babe will join us, but I know that my heart is steadfast because He is steadfast, unwavering, unchanging in His goodness, and that He loves us so so very much. I am thankful for Jesus and that I can walk with and rest in a person, in my savior.
He is intimate, He is personal, and He is so very good!
